The Translation of a Savage, Volume 2.
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At the opportune moment Captain Vidall was announced, and, because he and
Marion were soon to carry but one name between them, he was called into
family consultation. It is somewhat singular that in this case the women
were quite wrong and the men were quite right. For General Armour and
Captain Vidall were for silence until Frank came, if he came that day,
or for telling her the following morning, when the function was over.
And the men prevailed.
Marion was much excited all day; she had given orders that Frank's room
should be made ready, but for whom she gave no information. While Lali
was dressing for the evening, something excited and nervous, she entered
her room. They were now the best of friends. The years had seen many
shifting scenes in their companionship; they had been as often at war as
at peace; but they had respected each other, each after her own fashion;
and now they had a real and mutual regard. Lali's was a slim, lithe
figure, wearing its fashionable robes with an air of possession;
and the face above it, if not entirely beautiful, had a strange, warm
fascination. The girl had not been a chieftainess for nothing. A look
of quiet command was there, but also a far-away expression which gave a
faint look of sadness even when a smile was at the lips. The smile
itself did not come quickly, it grew; but above it all was hair of
perfect brown, most rare,--setting off her face as a plume does a helmet.
She showed no surprise when Marion entered. She welcomed her with a
smile and outstretched hand, but said nothing.
"Lali," said Marion somewhat abruptly,--she scarcely knew why she said
it,--"are you happy?"
It was strange how the Indian girl had taken on those little manners of
society which convey so much by inflection. She lifted her eyebrows at
Marion, and said presently, in a soft, deliberate voice, "Come, Marion,
we will go and see little Richard; then I shall be happy."
She linked her arm through Marion's. Marion drummed her fingers lightly
on the beautiful arm, and then fell to wondering what she should say
next. They passed into the room where the child lay sleeping; they went
to his little bed, and Lali stretched out her hand gently, touching the
curls of the child. Running a finger through one delicately, she said,
with a still softer tone than before: "Why should not one be happy?"
Marion looked up slowly into her eyes, let a hand fall on her shoulder
gently, and replied: "Lali, do you never wish Frank to come?"
Lali's fingers came from the child, the colour mounted slowly to her
forehead, and she drew the girl away again into the other room. Then she
turned and faced Marion, a deep fire in her eyes, and said, in a whisper
almost hoarse in its intensity: "Yes; I wish he would come to-night."
She looked harder yet at Marion; then, with a flash of pride and her
hands clasping before her, she drew herself up, and added: "Am I not
worthy to be his wife now? Am I not beautiful--for a savage?"
There was no common vanity in the action. It had a noble kind of
wistfulness, and a serenity that entirely redeemed it. Marion dated
her own happiness from the time when Lali met her accident, for in the
evening of that disastrous day she issued to Captain Hume Vidall a
commission which he could never--wished never--to resign. Since then
she had been at her best,--we are all more or less selfish creatures,--
and had grown gentler, curbing the delicate imperiousness of her nature,
and frankly, and without the least pique, taken a secondary position of
interest in the household, occasioned by Lali's popularity. She looked
Lali up and down with a glance in which many feelings met, and then,
catching her hands warmly, she lifted them, put them on her own
shoulders, and said: "My dear beautiful savage, you are fit and
worthy to be Queen of England; and Frank, when he comes--"
"Hush!" said the other dreamily, and put a finger on Marion's lips. "I
know what you are going to say, but I do not wish to hear it. He did not
love me then. He used me--" She shuddered, put her hands to her eyes
with a pained, trembling motion, then threw her head back with a quick
sigh. "But I will not speak of it. Come, we are for the dance, Marion.
It is the last, to-night. To-morrow--" She paused, looking straight
before her, lost in thought.
"Yes, to-morrow, Lali?"
"I do not know about to-morrow," was the reply. "Strange things come to
me."
Marion longed to tell her then and there the great news, but she was
afraid to do so, and was, moreover, withheld by the remembrance that it
had been agreed she should not be told. She said nothing.
At eleven o'clock the rooms were filled. For the fag end of the season,
people seemed unusually brilliant. The evening itself was not so hot as
common, and there was an extra array of distinguished guests. Marion was
nervous all the evening, though she showed little of it, being most
prettily employed in making people pleased with themselves. Mrs. Armour
also was not free from apprehension. In reply to inquiries concerning
her son she said, as she had often said during the season, that he might
be back at any time now. Lali had answered always in the same fashion,
and had shown no sign that his continued absence was singular. As the
evening wore on, the probability of Frank's appearance seemed less; and
the Armours began to breathe more freely.
Frank had, however, arrived. He had driven straight from Euston to
Cavendish Square, but, seeing the house lighted up, and guests arriving,
he had a sudden feeling of uncertainty. He ordered the cabman to take
him to his club. There he put himself in evening-dress, and drove back
again to the house. He entered quietly. At the moment the hall was
almost deserted; people were mostly in the ballroom and supper-room. He
paused a moment, biting his moustache as if in perplexity. A strange
timidity came on him. All his old dash and self-possession seemed to
have forsaken him. Presently, seeing a number of people entering the
hall, he made for the staircase, and went hastily up. Mechanically he
went to his own room, and found it lighted. Flowers were set about, and
everything was made ready as for a guest. He sat down, not thinking, but
dazed.
Glancing up, he saw his face in a mirror. It was bronzed, but it looked
rather old and careworn. He shrugged a shoulder at that. Then, in the
mirror, he saw also something else. It startled him so that he sat
perfectly still for a moment looking at it. It was some one laughing at
him over his shoulder--a child! He got to his feet and turned round. On
the table was a very large photograph of a smiling child--with his eyes,
his face. He caught the chair-arm, and stood looking at it a little
wildly. Then he laughed a strange laugh, and the tears leaped to his
eyes. He caught the picture in his hands, and kissed it,--very
foolishly, men not fathers might think,--and read the name beneath,
Richard Joseph Armour; and again, beneath that, the date of birth.
He then put it back on the table and sat looking at it-looking, and
forgetting, and remembering.
Presently, the door opened, and some one entered. It was Marion. She
had seen him pass through the hall; she had then gone and told her father
and mother, to prepare them, and had followed him upstairs. He did not
hear her. She stepped softly forwards. "Frank!" she said--"Frank!"
and laid a hand on his shoulder. He started up and turned his face on
her.
Then he caught her hands and kissed her. "Marion!" he said, and he
could say no more. But presently he pointed towards the photograph.
She nodded her head. "Yes, it is your child, Frank. Though, of course,
you don't deserve it. . . . Frank dear," she added, "I am glad--we
shall all be glad-to have you back; but you are a wicked man." She felt
she must say that.
Now he only nodded, and still looked at the portrait. "Where is--my
wife?" he added presently.
"She is in the ballroom." Marion was wondering what was best to do.
He caught his thumb-nail in his teeth. He winced in spite of himself.
"I will go to her," he said, "and then--the baby."
"I am glad," she replied, "that you have so much sense of justice left,
Frank: the wife first, the baby afterwards. But do you think you deserve
either?"
He became moody, and made an impatient gesture. "Lady Agnes Martling is
here, and also Lady Haldwell," she persisted cruelly. She did not mind,
because she knew he would have enough to compensate him afterwards.
"Marion," he said, "say it all, and let me have it over. Say what you
like, and I'll not whimper. I'll face it. But I want to see my child."
She was sorry for him. She had really wanted to see how much he was
capable of feeling in the matter.
"Wait here, Frank," she said. "That will be best; and I will bring your
wife to you."
He said nothing, but assented with a motion of the hand, and she left
him where he was. He braced himself for the interview. Assuredly a man
loses something of natural courage and self-confidence when he has done
a thing of which he should be, and is, ashamed.
It seemed a long time (it was in reality but a couple of minutes) before
the door opened again, and Marion said: "Frank, your wife!" and then
retreated.
The door closed, leaving a stately figure standing just inside it. The
figure did not move forwards, but stood there, full of life and fine
excitement, but very still also.
Frank Armour was confounded. He came forwards slowly, looking hard.
Was this distinguished, handsome, reproachful woman his wife--Lali, the
Indian girl, whom he had married in a fit of pique and brandy? He could
hardly believe his eyes; and yet hers looked out at him with something
that he remembered too, together with something which he did not
remember, making him uneasy. Clearly, his great mistake had turned from
ashes into fruit. "Lali!" he said, and held out his hand.
She reached out hers courteously, but her fingers gave him no response.
"We have many things to say to each other," she said, "but they cannot be
said now. I shall be missed from the ballroom."
"Missed from the ballroom!" He almost laughed to think how strange this
sounded in his ears. As if interpreting his thought, she added: "You
see, it is our last affair of the season, and we are all anxious to do
our duty perfectly. Will you go down with me? We can talk afterwards."
Her continued self-possession utterly confused him. She had utterly
confused Marion also, when told that her husband was in the house. She
had had presentiments, and, besides, she had been schooling herself for
this hour for a long time. She turned towards the door.
"But," he asked, like a supplicant, "our child! I want to see the boy."
She lifted her eyebrows, then, seeing the photograph of the baby on the
table, understood how he knew. "Come with me, then," she said, with a
little more feeling.
She led the way along the landing, and paused at her door. "Remember
that we have to appear amongst the guests directly," she said, as though
to warn him against any demonstration. Then they entered. She went over
to the cot and drew back the fleecy curtain from over the sleeping boy's
head. His fingers hungered to take his child to his arms. "He is
magnificent--magnificent!" he said, with a great pride. "Why did you
never let me know of it?"
"How could I tell what you would do?" she calmly replied. "You married
me--wickedly, and used me wickedly afterwards; and I loved the child."
"You loved the child," he repeated after her. "Lali," he added, "I don't
deserve it, but forgive me, if you can--for the child's sake."
"We had better go below," she calmly replied. "We have both duties to
do. You will of course--appear with me--before them?"
The slight irony in the tone cut him horribly. He offered his arm in
silence. They passed on to the staircase.
"It is necessary," she said, "to appear cheerful before one's guests."
She had him at an advantage at every point. "We will be cheerful, then,"
was his reply, spoken with a grim kind of humour. "You have learned it
all, haven't you?" he added.
They were just entering the ballroom. "Yes, with your kind help--and
absence," she replied.
The surprise of the guests was somewhat diminished by the fact that
Marion, telling General Armour and his wife first of Frank's return,
industriously sent the news buzzing about the room.
The two went straight to Frank's father and mother. Their parts were
all excellently played. Then Frank mingled among the guests, being very
heartily greeted, and heard congratulations on all sides. Old club
friends rallied him as a deserter, and new acquaintances flocked about
him; and presently he awakened to the fact that his Indian wife had been
an interest of the season, was not the least admired person present.
It was altogether too good luck for him; but he had an uncomfortable
conviction that he had a long path of penance to walk before he could
hope to enjoy it.
All at once he met Lady Haldwell, who, in spite of all, still accepted
invitations to General Armour's house--the strange scene between Lali and
herself never having been disclosed to the family. He had nothing but
bitterness in his heart for her, but he spoke a few smooth words, and she
languidly congratulated him on his bronzed appearance. He asked for a
dance, but she had not one to give him. As she was leaving, she suddenly
turned as though she had forgotten something, and looking at him, said:
"I forgot to congratulate you on your marriage. I hope it is not too
late?"
He bowed. "Your congratulations are so sincere," he said, "that they
would be a propos late or early." When he stood with his wife whilst the
guests were leaving, and saw with what manner she carried it all off,--as
though she had been born in the good land of good breeding,--he was moved
alternately with wonder and shame--shame that he had intended this noble
creature as a sacrifice to his ugly temper and spite.
When all the guests were gone and the family stood alone in the drawing-
room, a silence suddenly fell amongst them. Presently Marion said to her
mother in a half-whisper, "I wish Richard were here."
They all felt the extreme awkwardness of the situation, especially when
Lali bade General Armour, Mrs. Armour, and Marion good-night, and then,
turning to her husband, said, "Good-night"--she did not even speak his
name. "Perhaps you would care to ride to-morrow morning? I always go
to the Park at ten, and this will be my last ride of the season."
Had she written out an elaborate proclamation of her intended attitude
towards her husband, it could not have more clearly conveyed her mind
than this little speech, delivered as to a most friendly acquaintance.
General Armour pulled his moustache fiercely, and, it is possible,
enjoyed the situation, despite its peril. Mrs. Armour turned to the
mantel and seemed tremulously engaged in arranging some bric-a-brac.
Marion, however, with a fine instinct, slid her arm through that of Lali,
and gently said: "Yes, of course Frank will be glad of a ride in the
Park. He used to ride with me every morning. But let us go, us three,
and kiss the baby good-night--'good-night till we meet in the morning.'"
She linked her arm now through Frank's, and as she did so he replied to
Lali: "I shall be glad to ride in the morning, but--"
"But we can arrange it at breakfast," said his wife hurriedly. At the
same time she allowed herself to be drawn away to the hall with her
husband.
He was very angry, but he knew he had no right to be so. He choked back
his wrath and moved on amiably enough, and suddenly the fashion in which
the tables had been turned on him struck him with its tragic comedy, and
he involuntarily smiled. His sense of humour saved him from words and
acts which might possibly have made the matter a pure tragedy after all.
He loosed his arm from Marion's.
"I must bid father and mother good-night. Then I will join you both--
'in the court of the king.'" And he turned and went back, and said to
his father as he kissed his mother: "I am had at an advantage, General."
"And serves you right, my boy. You had the odds with you, but she has
captured them like a born soldier." His mother said to him gently:
"Frank, you blamed us, but remember that we wished only your good. Take
my advice, dear, and try to love your wife and win her confidence."
"Love her--try to love her!" he said. "I shall easily do that. But the
other--?" He shook his head a little, though what he meant perhaps he
did not know quite himself, and then followed Marion and Lali upstairs.
Marion had tried to escape from Lali, but was told that she must stay;
and the three met at the child's cot. Marion stooped down and kissed its
forehead. Frank stooped also and kissed its cheek. Then the wife kissed
the other cheek. The child slept peacefully on. "You can always see the
baby here before breakfast, if you choose," said Lali; and she held out
her hand again in good-night. At this point Marion stole away, in spite
of Lah's quick little cry of "Wait, Marion!" and the two were left alone
again.
"I am very tired," she said. "I would rather not talk to-night." The
dismissal was evident.
He took her hand, held it an instant, and presently said: "I will not
detain you, but I would ask you, Lali, to remember that you are my wife.
Nothing can alter that."
"Still we are only strangers, as you know," she quietly rejoined.
"You forget the days we were together--after we were married," he
cautiously urged.
"I am not the same girl, . . . you killed her. . . We have to start
again. . . . I know all."
"You know that in my wretched anger and madness I--"
"Oh, please do not speak of it," she said; "it is so bad even in
thought."
"But will you never forgive me, and care for me? We have to live our
lives together."
"Pray let us not speak of it now," she said, in a weary voice; then,
breathlessly: "It is of much more consequence that you should love me
--and the child."
He drew himself up with a choking sigh, and spread out his arms to her.
"Oh, my wife!" he exclaimed.
"No, no," she cried, "this is unreasonable; we know so little of each
other. . . . Good-night, again."
He turned at the door, came back, and, stooping, kissed the child on the
lips. Then he said: "You are right. I deserve to suffer. . . .
Good-night."
But when he was gone she dropped on her knees, and kissed the child many
times on the lips also.
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